Someday I will be a king.
"Someday I will be a King"
That pretty much wraps things up. I've got my crown, throne, and castle; a place of power. I think it's good that I didn't draw anyone bowing down before me or anything like that. This story seems like a collection of childhood fantasies, but I think it's significant in how it shows insights into my psychology. I didn't say, "someday I WANT to have plane tickets, Metroplex, and be a famous king", I said someday I WILL have or be those things". This most likely represents my desire even at that early stage to tap into the more archetypal king energy; to gain control over my life, my destiny, and to lead others through my example. So, I might as well just trust my childhood insights, and look forward to all the great things that will happen in my life.
posted by Ben Scheele | 1:00 PM
2 Comments:
I think it's possible to read too much into things sometimes, and other times it seems that revelations make perfect sense. I think that Page 2 was spot on. Pages 3 and 4 might be a bit indulgent. To be bluntly honest, as far as I know, you cannot become a king, as I doubt you are closely related enough to any of the remaining monarchies. I guess the one thing I would be sure to do it while to pay respect to insights you had when you were six, but realize that your sense of the world now is far more rational and realistic. One think that I've realized over the years is that any 'energy' we may or may not have does no good without putting it to use through hard work. Desire means nothing where the will is lacking. And it isn't always fun to get where you want to go.
Also, I'm curious; have you talked about any of this with your mom?
Thanks for the comments, "righty". Yeah, I am keeping things in perspective and understand that a lot more seemed possible back when I was a child. Of course, there's still a possibility for me to become a king in a figurative sense. Maybe "the king of throwing rocks across dark parking lots at lampposts", or maybe something minor. I look back at my stories and I can't help but laugh heartily. I agree with your points about will, desire, and energy. To quote a character from one of my favorite Manga, "Without a dream in their souls...people wither, people die. And without action, a dream grows stagnant. The only way for me to atone for my sin, my dream...is to make it a reality!" I have learned this lesson like that character did, the hard way. I now am willing to do all of the work that is necessary to get me to where I can do the work that I really want to do. And yeah, I have discussed these issues with my parents, and I have their support (in finding a job, not in becoming a king, that is).
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